I’m alive, but it has been a weird time. Adjusting to living on my own has finally caught up, and I’m trying to find a way to always have noise and people. I do a lot of cooking. I get a little bit of cabin fever at times even when I’m very busy. It’s easy to mistake the flow of the cars for the ocean and the noises of my neighbours as shifting old wood. I’m surprised at how much the white noise can throw me off and make me feel lonely very quickly.
I am currently working on two shows, one which opens this coming Friday and is scaring me silly. It’s huge, exhausted, thrilling and I just hope my body stays with me. It has been a stressful time and I’ve had a chest infection for a few weeks now. Blogging has been the last thing on my mind. This surprises me, because it used to be something I loved do. It was always just another way of entertaining.
I am not giving this up; In fact I decided it was better to break the ice now, no matter how unexciting the words were, just so it’s easier to start writing next time. I had tried a few times before, but felt I didn’t have enough to write. It’s not true through, I have pictures and stories to share. And I will.
I actually was prompted to write this, my less-than-spectacular comeback special, for two reasons after searching through the blog for an old entry. Firstly, this has always been a very good way for me to keep a diary, so I can look back and see when things happened and how I felt. Secondly, It reminds me of who I am. So much has changed in my life this year and it can be hard to connect my current life to who I was just six or nine months ago. I stumbled across a rather inane sentence I had written just under 12 months ago and thought to myself, “Ah yes, that is who I am”.
This just seems to be a time when I need the occasional reminder.
Nice to see you’re back. I may be a non-commenter but I missed you all the same. What are the shows?
Nice to have you back. I agree with you about the unexpected role of a blog as life diary. I’ve been blogging daily since I went away on my holiday. It’s been a great way of keeping track of life, keeping positive, and keeping busy, instead of sometimes wasting days. It’s a good reflective process.